…and now, ladies and gentlemen, I’d like to say a few words… I’ve been to a place That gave me memories of pain and hate I thought it would become my stepping stone Out into the world from the comforts of home Instead I encountered the disaffected, The immoral, the irreverent and the apathetic I reassessed my life after purging my mind Of the thoughts of a future that could’ve been mine Oh god don’t disillusion me again Why did this beginning turn out to be an end? It’s hard to let go of what I’ve wanted for so long But I can’t stay here where I don’t belong Two of my foes in the guise of friends Tried to bring about my innocence end They violated girls inside their minds And laughed about their fantasies during the night They tried to break me down at every chance they got Attacking my sense of self, instilling doubtful thoughts I was forced to live with them and endure their insults When I called out in need there was no one to help What’s going on, has the world gone mad? Standing my ground took all the strength I had I was left on my own to fight for myself alone Despair was closing in, not a hope to be found The gravity of the situation kept my feet on the ground But I lost something precious in that desolate land: The chance to transition from a boy to a man And now my future is cloudy like a broken crystal ball And I’m hoping to God I don’t fall Why? Liars and thieves, they stole my life Promised me a future that they knew was a lie They destroyed my faith in exchange for what? An education in regret, hatred and distrust I was deceived I couldn’t find anyone in whom to believe I can’t go on I won’t tolerate it, I’ve had enough I can’t take this I can’t take this My head will split right open She was a friend from the very start I didn’t trust my mind or listen to my heart I should’ve made a move when I had the chance But now I’ll never see her again I fell for another and I couldn’t see That I’d snatched at a dream and missed reality All those nights that I lay awake Wondering if it was the right choice to make What did I gain? What was it worth? Who have I lost? Why does this hurt? Where am I now? What do I know? Who should I trust? Where should I go? When will I know? Who will she be? Will love be like all that I’ve dreamed? How can you replace the missing piece Of the puzzle in the mirror that you see From a love… a love once lost And how can you carry on When what gave you strength is lost and gone And what… what is the cost? A love once lost A love once lost What is the cost?